The earth was shaken. Eighteen months in Israel had ended. We took our kids and dog and moved back to Seattle. So many people wonder why and how it could be, that we left behind such a beautiful house, which took us to build three years, left the dreams we were able and supposed to fulfill, and just in a bit, took our boys and dog, went on the plane and took the trip back to the other side of the world, leaving behind more or less everything.
The answer is not a simple one (I guess that nothing in life is simple), and this move is far from being easy or simple. We live now back in our house that we were supposed to sell; instead, we are selling the nice house in Tel Aviv.
Our family is in the US now, and again needs to adjust. How do we make this happen again? Slowly… The kids are back in their old schools, for some of them it feels like they never left, some of the kids misses their friends back in Israel, before, they missed their friends here…
Everyday life in Israel is not easy. There were so many times I asked myself how do they do it? How people In Israel do not give up like we did?
There are many aspects that are challenging in Israel. I would like to present some of them to you. This post speaks about hope for life in Israel. In the next posts I will talk about different life aspects, but this post is about life, security and safety, I mean the sense of being safe and secure. Just living simply everyday life, feeling protected, feeling that you start the day and everything will be ok in the evening, every day, just having regular life, regular schedule; this is not so obvious in Israel. There are too many times people are being exposed to unwanted and unexpected circumstances. I guess that this is one of the reasons Israelis tend to be more flexible than average American, they are used to be forced to adjust to life.
I can give many examples, but chose to present a personal one. The south of Israel is being bombed for the last 12 years. People can never predict how their day will look like. We have very close friends, who lives in one of the Moshavim next to Kiryat-Malachi. They have four kids. This area is being bombed very often; it is so hard to maintain just normal life when you are forced to be exposing your kids to war and cruelty. I think about them a lot. How tough they are! How they will never give up and stay there. I believe that I could have being living there had I not moved to the US and was able to experience life somewhere else. I remember how shocked I was over twenty years ago, the first time I lived abroad. We lived in London for a year, when we were not even married and didn`t have kids. I just could not understand how it can be, that the people are bothered by the weather, and by their plans for the weekends. I came from a place that was complicated, that peace and everyday life were not so obvious. At the beginning, it made me laugh, and think how shallow life was there, and then it hit me: I was the one who is being so weird: Actually, life in Israel is not normal. People should be focusing on their lives. People should be focusing on having fun, on the weather, just simple things and that should be it. But, in a twenty year old mind, my country was the best, my country was worth fighting for, and at the age of twenty I still believed the day peace would come is close. The day that every Israeli would be able to focus on everyday life, and not just how to survive, is very close. I would just need to wait. That day is so close, I could have sensed that.
Over twenty years went by, I am a mother of four boys, that day never seemed farther than what I ever thought it would be. I am ashamed to say the naked truth: I do not have hope anymore for a better future. I believe that what we have is what we are going to get too. Israel would have to fight for its life always. And in that thought in mind, us, Israelis need to rethink about our children`s future, about what we would like for them to have, where is hope for us?
I know that what I am writing is going to bring many comments about hope, and about sacrifying, about “the only way” and about me being selfish. I only have one thing to say in that matter: I love Israel with all my heart and soul, and would always see it as my home, but without hope there is no future.